Cybraceros and Transnationalness by Nicole Marroquin

Alex Rivera is working on a film called Sleepdealer and you should check it out. All the labor, without the Mexican bodies!

He also made an incredible short documentary called the Sixth Section about a town in Mexico and how some people from the town moved to the US to work. I could never describe it. Just see it and thank me later. It's one of the best things I have seen.

Before he did these projects, he made some hilarious other short film/video oddities, and they are online. Because life is good. My most favorite is Lowdrone. It is a surveillance lowrider car. Well, again, just see it. This is interactive and FUN.

This guy makes me want to be a filmmaker.

Trailer for Gentle Takeovers by Nicole Marroquin

Nameless Collective presents:

Another way of looking at spaces, here. We photographed, explored, discussed to the ends of the earth had tacos upon tacos trying to find a new vocabulary, both visual and verbal, that we could use to work on this space. Empty, abandoned, viaduct, nothing seemed adequate. Liminal, interstitial, littoral and nonprivleged are not so accessible and might work great in a lecture hall but they are not so effective in the real world.

that's right. i said it.

reflection on B.C. 1 by Nicole Marroquin


It's funny how breathtaking landscapes can make you feel, especially when it takes you by suprise. I didn't think that Tijuana was sandwiched between rolling hills, enormous skies, cliffs, mountains and overlooks into the Pacific ocean. It's rugged, no doubt, but it was so beautiful that it made me wonder about those big big things. The ones that people search for answers to. Sometimes this is why landscapes like this make me feel uncomfortable. I wonder how seeing this place and these people has changed the course of my life.

The places that were not developed were directly on the fault. There were a few places being built there but I heard the earth moves regularly, so only a long distance buyer would be so stupid. It is very noticable, the undeveloped areas. Trump is building near there, to give you an idea.


This is the van we drove to talk to some people about solidarity and the run. I felt safe when I saw that it was unmarked, except for this.

It was a good ride. This picture is taken from my copilot position. I was terrible at the radio job but that was a good thing because I was able to have some intense conversations with the friend who was driving. This guy knows a lot of things that I wanted to ask him about. He was the kind of person who might make you wish you were stranded somewhere for a few days so you could just HAVE those long conversations. But no time for idleness. He was on a mission.
These folks in the back were also from gabacholandia. I was told that the hosts brought me and A out there because we were artists and they knew artists would do something with what they saw. And that artists don't forget experiences like this. It was great to be recognized for this and to know people who think of artists as having a useful function. It's just not as common as it should be.

next to the beach in Tijuana. by Nicole Marroquin


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Translation from this stone plaque near the beach, next to the border:

Nearby is the beginning place of the border between Mexico and the United States established on October 10 1849. The flag of Mexico here symbolizes the friendship between the peoples of Mexico and the United States and to commemorate the idea of the Natural Collateral Park on the border.

this was pointed out to me by one of my hosts. New heights in irony.

Chilangolandia to Chilango Lite by Nicole Marroquin

This is an image from July. I had intensive taco eating lessons. Yes yes, there is also video footage. At this point I had gotten the hang of it and was moving so fast the camera could not pick up my magic. How complicated, I jump from July to the end of August in one line. But here I go.

It is hard to untangle all of the things that have been going on for the past few days. I am feeling like keeping secret what I am thinking on one hand, and also like moving on to a new phase. Now that I am home and I have interviews, videos, photos and so on, I need to look at spending extended time in the editing labs. also, distribution. Also, finding out what it all means. It is not everything I thought it was, but it sure is much more of other things. The way my personal identity is related to what I am working on is now more complicated, but I will go into that later. For now, paring it down, taming the beast. Summaries!

Tijuana was incredible. The city itself was amazing, and complicated. Ugly and breathtaking at the same time, which I say despite the cliche sound because I don't know a place it applies to better. It has the things I love about Mexico- people, music, foods, radicals in the streets, lotsa heart, and it also has a river of shit running through it.

We stayed in the home of 2 ex-pat justice workers who have figured out the keys to happiness and live directly on the beach. Waking up to see the surfers get some action before work, looking for dolphins and seeing them from the front porch, it was magical. Our hosts were kind, generous, fun and had so much exciting things going on, from the struggle in the maquiladoras to el campo y los indigenas, to water, to early childhood education, bullighting and surfing. Plus, the house was full of incredible ceramics because of course, they had incredible ceramists in the family. I could gush and rave for days, but I will leave some to the imagination. Here is a sunset with surfers. First time I saw surfers in person and you can see they made an impression on me.

At one point we were invited to go out to indigenous communities while a friend of our hosts passed on some information and news. Solidarity work is hard in rural areas because you have to get there, and toll roads are expensive. And it is in the desert and gas costs the same there as it does here, but you make $10 a day (if you got a sweet job) doing construction or $2 in a factory. Hours on the road takes lots of money. Plus, you get there, you hang out, talk, talk, talk. Email had made me forget how communication really works. You see someone in my reality and they ask how you are, and I say, have you not read my blog?

We went out and met with people, sitting down. As a result, in our posession are a few very hot testemonios from people who are not going to take the shit sitting down. Here are speakers in a house in a settlement that has no water, limited electricity (see the wires?) where we did an intense interview. Well, I asked as general a question as I could as part of the ritual of the interview, and these guys went off. From prison and torture in Oaxaca to the border. The margins are all centrally located here. This town was made up of people who were looking for work and either kicked out of the US or had foiled attempts at crossing.

In another location, on traditional ceremonial grounds southeast of Tecate BC, 20 miles from the border, people put trailers down and looked like they were going to try to settle it. Might have been folks from the US, poor Mexicans looking for a home, who knows. But these are tribal burial grounds for a lot of people. So they tied the trailers to trucks and dragged them away. It came to blows as you would expect. We were out there a few days later and the vibe was tense. It is not resolved and there were barbed wire fences everywhere and even an armed guard at one place. People are just settling the land as if nobody was on it. As if other people's spirituality meant nothing. As if their struggle took presidence over the struggles of the indigenous people who live there. Sound familiar?

Which is why solidarity is, to me, above everything.

Tijuana report by Nicole Marroquin

I just got back from Tijuana, the happiest place on earth. Since I am nursing a sunburn/tan and have not slept properly in days, let me catch you up tomorrow.

The happiest place on earth.

san diego o o o by Nicole Marroquin

As if looking perfect doesn't actually come from inside! I am amazed at the exquisite 99% perfect physical shape people are in here. Between colonics and bikram yoga people must be eating their natural fibre organic thongs or just having superior mental conditions. Or something. Where I come from, quitting smoking makes you a health nut.

It is still perfectly sunny and now it is 75 and breezy. sick! It was awesome at first but now I am getting disoriented and annoyed.

Yesterday we went to another level of hell in terms of wealth and plastic people: La Jolla. There we acquired the special battery for a camera and went to a film night at the contemporary art museum. The films were well curated (more than 20 in total) and the set up was very smart- 5 screening areas and you can walk from one to the other, like channel flipping. which we did. We had a fine meal, but all the while we were in this freaky place were everyone looked like Isadora Duarte de Montalvo.

This weekend we will be staying in Tijuana. We will attend a protest as OBSERVERS because we know that participating in any level of politics in Mexico is grounds for being banned permanantly from the country. (but officer, the personal is the political!) After this we will be hosted by people who live there and have graciously offered to host us for a night and give us some grande tours. I will keep my eyes peeled for any activity from the Elvira Arellano camp. For those who don't know, read up! It has been a real outlet for the racists. Awesome!

Tonight though, I am off to visit with a dear pal who is a sister in the struggle at UCSD, also in her 3rd year as a grad, also a single mother of a child the same age so she knows, and we will kick back and talk casual but hopefully also strategy for navagating the institution.

I hope to hit a flea market tomorrow in San Ysidro. Is there any difference between a flea market and swap meet, aside from regional term? I say nay but please let me know if you know. This is a question for that librarian on NPR.

Still dealing with serious neck/face/arm pain. But clearheaded is best, I have decided.

greetings from bizarro world by Nicole Marroquin

Strange how real things can look so fake. And I still have yet to see a cloud since I left Michigan.

Julia Roberts, Marilyn Monroe and Lady Diana. Why? Because that is the way it is in the Museo de Cera (Wax).

We also went to a mall called Fashion Valley. It was just like a few other new indoor/outdoor un-places I have been to. Simon says we need to get permission but I hear it is better to ask for forgiveness. Ultimately the mall was a drag.

Trolley takers by Nicole Marroquin

Today things were manageable in terms of pain and I was able to check out some remote places. It was hot as hell and pretty overwhelming between all the new smells and noises. I am exhaused but documented plenty and will pass on what is going on tomorrow. Right now I need to wash and sleep.

a pain in my neck by Nicole Marroquin

Here in San Diego, gorgeous weather, great neighborhood, terrific apartment, I have been laid up in extreme pain blown out by muscle relaxants. If all goes well, tomorrow I will begin to tackle my todo list. Otherwise, thank goodness for the lovely convenient place where I am.
I had a puzzling conversation with my doctor on the phone about why I could not have more than 1.5 days of muscle relaxants when I have not slept for the pain in 2 nights. He said I might abuse them. Hello. I am 15 minutes from TJ. Why am I being shamed for going the legit route? Well, I am not going for sainthood, but I would like to not be wincing and walking like frankenstien.
In other news: Destilando Amor is 2 weeks ahead in DF. In other words it is behind in A2. Here it is on a Tijuana television station, and I find out that la Gaviota is Rodrigo's aunt. Here is mas escandalo!

Ain't no particular type I'm more compatable with. by Nicole Marroquin

Michfest provided me with the time and the space to relax and rejuvenate. This summer is packed! I was able to get charged up for another project and eventually the final year of grad school, and I am grateful for the time with my daughter. I am grateful for the utopic seperatist feminist community, even if it is not perfect, and only lasts a week. The nutloaf this year was almost perfect.

Lesbians on Ecstasy are an incredible freak-out of a good time. If you ever ever ever get a chance to see them, RUN, sisters. Run to see them. Be ready to shake it. They were great in the woods. They said they never came before because of the trans exclusion issue- which is keeping so many people from coming to the land. controversy! more on this and other highlights of fest coming soon. Technology breakdowns are keeping the photos from you. I still have the Lucha Libre photos on my phone. Bad Tech Lady! Shame.

The adventures continue. Tomorrow, Tijuana! stay tuned.

Continuous stream of information by Nicole Marroquin

The sticker says something about taking it to the street when politicians talk smack. The artist on the right is Laura (of the Reaccion Directa Colectivo) and the artist on the left is a friend of hers who happens to be driving around Mexico right now with a radio transmitter. I asked him, are you licensed? No. what are your programs about? Science and health. He travels to remote communities and lives there for a while, playing science radio. Amazing.

The most remarkable thing about Coyocan is that it is packed with people on weekend nights until very late. there is live music, performances of all kinds, amazing food, tianguis, and KIDS everywhere. Safe and public. Behind the people in the back is the home, yes the actual house, of Hernan Cortez (the one and only) which casts another light on all the fun and games going on in the foreground. Most of the people I met and great things that happened on my trip happened in public space, on the street.

Parade costuming in Oaxaca looks an awful lot like things I have seen in New Orleans.

early on i went to this museum that had the most incredible paper mache work with enormous and fantastic displays of traditional work.

how to eat tacos by Nicole Marroquin

there have been so many moments that i did not take pictures that i should have, but here, on my last night in town, i had a terrific lesson on how to eat tacos. luckily i was in an advanced group and we went directly to the final round, and we won!!

Still unpacking media, finding disks, wondering what i said on text messages in Spanish that made people stop talking to me, and wishing i was still in Mexico. I was trying to explain to friends why it was so good that I had massive unfulfilled plans there so that I would return.

Goodbye Sarita, Jossy, Carlos, Susana, Juan, Julio, Jasso (y los tres), Said, Charcko, Laura, Miguel, Donovan, Eric, Alfredo, Mooe, Ponk, Conejo, Mojdeh, Marvila, Dona Aurora, Alexis, Sixto, Martin, El Jarocho, and the two guys who told me where I was going in Iztapalapa when I was lost and beyond hope. You all took such good care of me. XOXO

wrap up by Nicole Marroquin

Wish you were here...

I had to kiss all the lovely objects goodbye at at the Anthro museum today. As usual I found several new things, and I am thinking about cosmologies and maps again after feeling very disconnected.

Monday night was an art collective jam session. There was documentation, clearly. The range of artists in this collective really excites me, and they don´t seem to see anything out of the ordinary with my manner of working: equally in clay, live action and technology. They are musicians, net activists, street artists, interventionists and visual artists. Every one of them does social justice work with youth both in and out of schools. None of them think of it as separate from their practice. They have a nonprofit and 3 different collectives. These folks hustle.

This is Charcko. I don´t want to rave too much, but this guy is gonna blow up. He is a math/chem major, does video, takes classes, works nights, has a career in electronic music and jams with youth groups using minimal technology and old computers. 24 years old. He is also extremely generous, and after hanging out with 2 cameras and a firewire at mcDonalds in the Zocalo for an hour, I have copies of a bunch of his work.

Laura describes her projects, one of which was a street project in which she wore this apron. Justice for the murdered women of Juarez!

Said shoots.

Miguel has docu drama, too.
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I was there.

This is an inflatable Japan atop the MUCA museum. From what I hear there are lots of amazing inflatables in the show. SIGH......

On top of the pyramids at Tula, the Toltec city about 2 hours out of DF. This city was active more or less between Teotihuacan and Tenochtitlan. It is really really high and I am scared to be up there but I can´t take the ribbing from my friends, so I climbed.

This is my original Tula photo. You will not find this anywhere else on the internet.

I can´t stop taking pictures of chicken shacks. Amazing chicken paintings on nearly every block. Maximum chicken, here.

Leaving Teotihuacan there was rain. It was good that I couldn´t see out the car windows. My head was overloaded- in a good good way.

tomorrow i fly home. I have about 1000 more images, but they will wait.

torture by Nicole Marroquin

today i went to the torture museum. It was not what I expected, and there was this creepy church music blaring from an unknown location. It was in this super super old building in el centro and i was surrounded by happy couples. hmm. much of the exhibit seemed to be based on hearsay and almost everything in the exhibit was a repleca. Except this thing that looked like a speculum, which was original. torture devices. it was more like so-and-so´s speculation/fantasy. But overall it was good and gross. Light on the contemporary US military methods, though.

I also went to a magical place where Maya, CS3, finalcut and anything else you can imagine is $8. Later I went to a swank cafe to wait for a dear friend and electronic music freak to meet up and connect cameras under the table to copy some mini dvs of him performing live- a multimedia extravaganza- but my pinche phone died and now all i got is a plan to meet up with him later on monday.

i have also had to face the fact that the MUCA show is not going to open just because i keep going back. yesterday i was caught in the rain for over an hour and got mad and sad but came to the conclusion that EVERYONE but me knows that the show is closed till august.

5 more days, and i am booked up. sunday, teotihuacan. monday, graffiti people all day, media exchange and 2 interviews at night. tuesday, Frida. Wednesday, Anthro again, then pack up. Thursday, I get home to see my baby!