I want to describe the changes, but I cannot find the proper combination of words. My joy and pain have multiplied. matched by the intense need I feel to regain my center because after the universe took me down, smeared me in dirt, buried me, i will never take anything for granted again. I am very receptive to the good things. And I can let myself feel bad for the past. Healing time. Crying and laughing a lot. And I just ran a mile in 12.5 minutes.

Things could not get weirder. I am sending all the love I am getting back out into the universe.